Wanna know the fastest way to piss off a 9 and 1/2 month pregnant women? ARGUE WITH HER ABOUT HER DUE DATE!!! lol.
There was only one possible conception "encounter" in the month of August. It was August 16th. After a dating ultrasound at 5ish weeks it was confirmed that I probably concieved between the 16th-18th. Well, no suprise to me there lol. My due date was set to May 8th, 2010 off that dating ultrasound (they never told me that due date. They hadnt told me ANY due date at that point because they were unsure of viability). Well, at my next ultrasound when we saw the heartbeat and everything they told me I was due May 2nd, 2010. EXCELLENT! Well I started noticing on paperwork that my "EDD" said 5/8/10 and not 5/2/10. I decided to ask my doctor LAST week and he basically said that the earlier U/S set the computer to 5/8/10 and since the next ultrasound was only 6 days different it wouldnt change it. It has to be a week or more difference for them to change it in the system. He acted like it was no big deal though and even said later in the convo "when your due on May 2nd we will...." when talking about a delivery plan. So even he was treating me as due 5/2/10. It bugs me that I have to tell them I am due the 8th but really the 2nd... just because the stupid computer wont change it. But I can deal. Or so I thought...
Well, today I get to talking to the doc about inductions and going over due and everything. Well, since Kaiser is set up with rotation there is a VERY good chance my OB wont get to deliver me because he could be in the clinic or off or on call at Lakeview or on call at Sand Canyon... its all really up to chance lol. I asked when we would talk about inducing if I went over due. He said because my due date in the computer is the 8th they will not schedule an induction until I hit "41" weeks which according to the computer will be the 15th. ARE YOU KIDDING ME! I was like well thats all fine and dandy but I am technically due the 2nd so shouldnt the induction be set off of that? He basically said hopefully we wont need to do induce. COP OUT! lol. He didnt want to have to argue with me. He is seriously THE BEST OB EVER... this is the first time I actually got angry at him lol. If I am due the 2nd and you dont plan on scheduling my induction until the 15th... that means you are having me go over a MINIMUM of 13 days... I CANT HANDLE THAT!!! (Megan was like 3wks overdue with Makalah lol... so she is probably rolling her eyes at my pettiness right about now).
So help me God if I am pregnant after May 10th... hell hath no fury like a scorned pregnant woman lol.
So thats my rant.
I didnt get checked for dilation or anything today because my SIL is out of town and I need her at delivery or else it will be just me and David and I sorta need Jill for a few things at the hospital that I wont be able to "get" if she isnt there. Doc is also outa town for 5 days starting tonight so just double the reason I need to keep from going into labor. He wants to deliver me if at all possible so we are trying to get that to work out. So we decided no cervical exam just incase because it can start labor.
So who knows if I am still 2cm or if I am 7cm. I guess if a baby falls out soon we shall know lol.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
brief break.
Im sorry little blog. I have been slacking. I am exhausted and overly emotional and right now I dont have much to talk about. Im at the end of my rope with being pregnant and all I can do is focus on the exact tasks at hand and pray its almost time for delivery haha.
So until I am sane, Ill be around.
:)
Love, Cassandra
So until I am sane, Ill be around.
:)
Love, Cassandra
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Cross posted: Breastfeeding
I read this in a birthclub I belong to and I thought it was a good read. I mean... even if you just try for a few days in the hospital there are benefits. Some people cant physically nurse and thats okay... but at least try just to see if you can and to give your baby those extra little nutrients/antibodies that you cant get from formula. Either way your child will be fed and thrive... but its worth a shot to just try :)
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR JUST A FEW DAYS, he will have received your colostrum, or early milk. By providing antibodies and the food his brand-new body expects, nursing gives your baby his first - and easiest - "immunization" and helps get his digestive system going smoothly. Breastfeeding is how your baby expects to start, and helps your own body recover from the birth. Given how very much your baby stands to gain, and how little you stand to lose, it just makes good sense to breastfeed for at least a day or two, even if you plan to bottle-feed after that.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR FOUR TO SIX WEEKS, you will have eased him through the most critical part of his infancy. Newborns who are not breastfed are much more likely to get sick or be hospitalized, and have many more digestive problems than breastfed babies. After 4 to 6 weeks, you'll probably have worked through any early nursing concerns, too. Make a serious goal of nursing for a month, call La Leche League or a certified lactation consultant if you have any questions, and you'll be in a better position to decide whether continued breastfeeding is for you.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR 3 OR 4 MONTHS, her digestive system will have matured a great deal, and she will be much better able to tolerate the foreign substances in commercial formulas. If there is a family history of allergies, though, you will greatly reduce her risk by waiting a few more months before adding anything at all to her diet of breastmilk. And giving nothing but your milk for the first four months gives strong protection against ear infections for a whole year.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR 6 MONTHS without adding any other food or drink, she will be much less likely to suffer an allergic reaction to formula or other foods later on; the American Academy of Pediatrics recommends waiting until about 6 months to offer solid foods. Nursing for at least 6 months helps ensure better health throughout your baby's first year of life, reduces your little one's risk of ear infections and childhood cancers, and reduces your own risk of breast cancer. And exclusive, frequent breastfeeding during the first 6 months, if your periods have not returned, provides 98% effective contraception.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR 9 MONTHS, you will have seen him through the fastest and most important brain and body development of his life on the food that was designed for him - your milk. Nursing for at least this long will help ensure better performance all through his school years. Weaning may be fairly easy at this age... but then, so is nursing! If you want to avoid weaning this early, be sure you've been available to nurse for comfort as well as just for food.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR A YEAR, you can avoid the expense and bother of formula. Her one-year-old body can probably handle most of the table foods your family enjoys. Many of the health benefits this year of nursing has given your child will last her whole life. She will have a stronger immune system, for instance, and will be much less likely to need orthodontia or speech therapy. The American Academy of Pediatrics recommends nursing for at least a year, because it helps ensure normal nutrition and health for your baby.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR 18 MONTHS, you will have continued to provide the nutrition, comfort, and illness protection your baby expects, at a time when illness is common in formula-fed babies. Your baby is probably well started on table foods, too. He has had time to form a solid bond with you - a healthy starting point for his growing independence. And he is old enough that you and he can work together on the weaning process, at a pace that he can handle. A former U.S. Surgeon General said, "it is the lucky baby... that nurses to age two."
IF YOUR CHILD WEANS WHEN SHE IS READY, you can feel confident that you have met your baby's physical and emotional needs in a very normal, healthy way. In cultures where there is no pressure to wean, children tend to nurse for at least two years. The World Health Organization and UNICEF strongly encourage breastfeeding through toddlerhood: "Breastmilk is an important source of energy and protein, and helps to protect against disease during the child's second year of life." Our biology seems geared to a weaning age of between 2 1/2 and 7 years, and it just makes sense to build our children's bones from the milk that was designed for them. Your milk provides antibodies and other protective substances for as long as you continue nursing, and families of nursing toddlers often find that their medical bills are lower than their neighbors' for years to come. Research indicates that the longer a child nurses, the higher his intelligence. Mothers who nurse longterm have a still lower risk of developing breast cancer. Children who were nursed longterm tend to be very secure, and are less likely to suck their thumbs or carry a blanket. Nursing can help ease both of you through the tears, tantrums, and tumbles that come with early childhood, and helps ensure that any illnesses are milder and easier to deal with. It's an all-purpose mothering tool you won't want to be without! Don't worry that your child will nurse forever. All children stop on their own, no matter what you do, and there are more nursing toddlers around than you might guess.
WHETHER YOU NURSE FOR A DAY OR FOR SEVERAL YEARS, the decision to nurse your child is one you need never regret. And whenever weaning takes place, remember that it is a big step for both of you. If you choose to wean before your child is ready, be sure to do it gradually, and with love.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR JUST A FEW DAYS, he will have received your colostrum, or early milk. By providing antibodies and the food his brand-new body expects, nursing gives your baby his first - and easiest - "immunization" and helps get his digestive system going smoothly. Breastfeeding is how your baby expects to start, and helps your own body recover from the birth. Given how very much your baby stands to gain, and how little you stand to lose, it just makes good sense to breastfeed for at least a day or two, even if you plan to bottle-feed after that.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR FOUR TO SIX WEEKS, you will have eased him through the most critical part of his infancy. Newborns who are not breastfed are much more likely to get sick or be hospitalized, and have many more digestive problems than breastfed babies. After 4 to 6 weeks, you'll probably have worked through any early nursing concerns, too. Make a serious goal of nursing for a month, call La Leche League or a certified lactation consultant if you have any questions, and you'll be in a better position to decide whether continued breastfeeding is for you.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR 3 OR 4 MONTHS, her digestive system will have matured a great deal, and she will be much better able to tolerate the foreign substances in commercial formulas. If there is a family history of allergies, though, you will greatly reduce her risk by waiting a few more months before adding anything at all to her diet of breastmilk. And giving nothing but your milk for the first four months gives strong protection against ear infections for a whole year.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR 6 MONTHS without adding any other food or drink, she will be much less likely to suffer an allergic reaction to formula or other foods later on; the American Academy of Pediatrics recommends waiting until about 6 months to offer solid foods. Nursing for at least 6 months helps ensure better health throughout your baby's first year of life, reduces your little one's risk of ear infections and childhood cancers, and reduces your own risk of breast cancer. And exclusive, frequent breastfeeding during the first 6 months, if your periods have not returned, provides 98% effective contraception.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR 9 MONTHS, you will have seen him through the fastest and most important brain and body development of his life on the food that was designed for him - your milk. Nursing for at least this long will help ensure better performance all through his school years. Weaning may be fairly easy at this age... but then, so is nursing! If you want to avoid weaning this early, be sure you've been available to nurse for comfort as well as just for food.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR A YEAR, you can avoid the expense and bother of formula. Her one-year-old body can probably handle most of the table foods your family enjoys. Many of the health benefits this year of nursing has given your child will last her whole life. She will have a stronger immune system, for instance, and will be much less likely to need orthodontia or speech therapy. The American Academy of Pediatrics recommends nursing for at least a year, because it helps ensure normal nutrition and health for your baby.
IF YOU NURSE YOUR BABY FOR 18 MONTHS, you will have continued to provide the nutrition, comfort, and illness protection your baby expects, at a time when illness is common in formula-fed babies. Your baby is probably well started on table foods, too. He has had time to form a solid bond with you - a healthy starting point for his growing independence. And he is old enough that you and he can work together on the weaning process, at a pace that he can handle. A former U.S. Surgeon General said, "it is the lucky baby... that nurses to age two."
IF YOUR CHILD WEANS WHEN SHE IS READY, you can feel confident that you have met your baby's physical and emotional needs in a very normal, healthy way. In cultures where there is no pressure to wean, children tend to nurse for at least two years. The World Health Organization and UNICEF strongly encourage breastfeeding through toddlerhood: "Breastmilk is an important source of energy and protein, and helps to protect against disease during the child's second year of life." Our biology seems geared to a weaning age of between 2 1/2 and 7 years, and it just makes sense to build our children's bones from the milk that was designed for them. Your milk provides antibodies and other protective substances for as long as you continue nursing, and families of nursing toddlers often find that their medical bills are lower than their neighbors' for years to come. Research indicates that the longer a child nurses, the higher his intelligence. Mothers who nurse longterm have a still lower risk of developing breast cancer. Children who were nursed longterm tend to be very secure, and are less likely to suck their thumbs or carry a blanket. Nursing can help ease both of you through the tears, tantrums, and tumbles that come with early childhood, and helps ensure that any illnesses are milder and easier to deal with. It's an all-purpose mothering tool you won't want to be without! Don't worry that your child will nurse forever. All children stop on their own, no matter what you do, and there are more nursing toddlers around than you might guess.
WHETHER YOU NURSE FOR A DAY OR FOR SEVERAL YEARS, the decision to nurse your child is one you need never regret. And whenever weaning takes place, remember that it is a big step for both of you. If you choose to wean before your child is ready, be sure to do it gradually, and with love.
Monday, April 12, 2010
I am term. And have a lot to talk about lol.
So I made it to "term". The baby is developed and can come now and it would not be considered a premature birth. I cant believe the day is here where I am "term" with a baby. It seems like the days of imagining what it would be like to even get pregnant, let alone stay pregnant... and no be finishing a pregnancy-- Its all a blur haha. Im here, David and I made it... the Lord TRUELY provided. Here is a picture of my ever expanding midline. Its hanging lower and lower these days haha.
I keep complaining that it feels like I need to poop but I dont need to poop. Its just an intense amount of pressure from her head. I also cant seem to breathe right... I am panting or something. You know when you run up a flight of stairs real quick and then a minute later you like cant breathe? (well, if your out of shape like me then you know what Im talking about lol) Im constantly breathing like that. They say that you are suposed to be able to breathe better when the baby drops... but she is dropped and I still cant freaking breathe. Its actually really annoying. I sit at the front desk in the lobby at my work, and the security guard who sits in the lobby to is constantly making cracks about how I need to change my name to "Darth Vador" lol. It was funny the first time... but he is literally reffering to me as Darth now. Not so funny anymore. Infact... ITS ANNOYING!! I know what I sound like and if I could catch my breath I would. AHHHH!
I am contracting ALL THE TIME but in no consistant pattern. Its quite frustrating. I dont want her here before she is good and ready and healthy... but I also am getting really tired and I dont do so well with pain. Plus I have a wisdom tooth that I need pulled (its infected. Of course.) but I cant have it pulled without being put under due to it being spiral rooted into my jaw nerve... they wont do anything about it until Im not pregnant anymore. However, it wasnt a big deal until this last week. The tooth wasnt hurting me at all. Then I got sick (my ears/sinus thing) and I guess the pressure from that activated the pain in the tooth. Now I cant chew and the tooth is killing me. 9 months pain free... and at the very end you decide to start acting up little wisdom tooth! REALLY!! REALLLLLY NOW!!?? haha. Oh the irony. Im going to be giving birth an in more pain from a stupid tooth then blowing a bowling ball out of me lol. Well... here is to the next 20ish days!!
I keep complaining that it feels like I need to poop but I dont need to poop. Its just an intense amount of pressure from her head. I also cant seem to breathe right... I am panting or something. You know when you run up a flight of stairs real quick and then a minute later you like cant breathe? (well, if your out of shape like me then you know what Im talking about lol) Im constantly breathing like that. They say that you are suposed to be able to breathe better when the baby drops... but she is dropped and I still cant freaking breathe. Its actually really annoying. I sit at the front desk in the lobby at my work, and the security guard who sits in the lobby to is constantly making cracks about how I need to change my name to "Darth Vador" lol. It was funny the first time... but he is literally reffering to me as Darth now. Not so funny anymore. Infact... ITS ANNOYING!! I know what I sound like and if I could catch my breath I would. AHHHH!I am contracting ALL THE TIME but in no consistant pattern. Its quite frustrating. I dont want her here before she is good and ready and healthy... but I also am getting really tired and I dont do so well with pain. Plus I have a wisdom tooth that I need pulled (its infected. Of course.) but I cant have it pulled without being put under due to it being spiral rooted into my jaw nerve... they wont do anything about it until Im not pregnant anymore. However, it wasnt a big deal until this last week. The tooth wasnt hurting me at all. Then I got sick (my ears/sinus thing) and I guess the pressure from that activated the pain in the tooth. Now I cant chew and the tooth is killing me. 9 months pain free... and at the very end you decide to start acting up little wisdom tooth! REALLY!! REALLLLLY NOW!!?? haha. Oh the irony. Im going to be giving birth an in more pain from a stupid tooth then blowing a bowling ball out of me lol. Well... here is to the next 20ish days!!
Friday I took a half day at work so that I could go to David's work baby shower. It was a lot of fun. I got to meet his co-workers and his boss. I had never really met them because I have had no reason to go to his work before. It was nice to finally meet everyone he contantly "talks" about lol. His boss (Emily) threw the shower and there were like 15 people there. They had it catered by Maggiano's which is a really yummy restaurant. There was 2 different salads, 2 different types of bread, 3 different pastas, ect. It was really good. There was a ton of food and they sent it all home with us which was a joke because there is no way I could eat all of that and Davids on a diet lol. But regardless I was greatful. She also got a fruit pastry thing for the "cake" and OH-EMM-GEE it was so freaking good. It was beautiful too! (See pic below). Its from some Bakery that his boss loves and let me tell you... it has my vote. She also brought some cream puffs from this place... AHH! I ate like a box of them lol. They were freaking yummy. I included some pictures for your viewing pleasure!! (Again, people were SO generous with gifts).
This weekend was pretty fun after that too. I went home and napped because I was so tired from not sleeping well and then working the early shift so I could take a 1/2 day for the shower. So when I woke up David and I got dressed and headed out to Disneyland to hang out with Kalen and the two wee ones while Megan worked. Since I am "term" now and walking can only help... I put on my walking shoes and braved the park by foot. Usually I am in a wheel chair haha. Well, it was PACKED so I couldnt have gotten a wheel chair if I wanted one regardless. Kalen took this oppertunity to get us a pass to use the handicap entrance for the rides because he felt it was not practical for my "very pregnant" self to stand in the que lines. He said I wouldnt fit well and that if I had to use the restroom getting out would be near impossible for me. They agreed and would have given him the pass after saying "she needs a pass she is very pregnant" but he felt the need to secure the deal by adding all the other stuff haha. So we started off our adventures by riding Peter Pan, Dumbo, Pinoccio (which broke down), Alice, Its a small world... and then getting dinner during the fireworks. The girls fell asleep at dinner and we just relaxed until it was time to actually go. The girls needed diapers changed and Makalah was not happy because we had to wake her up to leave the restaurant. She got David to hold her and then Kalen & I used the bathroom. Well Makalah was totally relaxed on David aparrently because she pee'd on him with epic pee proprotions lol. She socked through her diaper, her shorts, his jacket, his button up shirt, and his garment shirt. Not damp... SOAKED lol. I was dying of laughter... David not so much. He went and got a new shirt (which looked REALLY hot on him I might add) and Kalen changed the girls. Then Kalen took Makalah with him to the tram to get the car, I took Brookie with me to the 15min parking and waited for David to go get his car from the Mimi's cafe lot. He came, and Brookie & I and him waiting in the car, then Megan showed up from getting off her shift so she waited with us and then eventually Kalen got there. We called it a night (it was after midnight at this point) and headed our seperate ways.
Saturday I woke up to help David get ready for bootcamp, and then went back to sleep. He left and did the Millenium Fitness bootcamp and then afterwards took my car for an oil change and also got me 2 new tires because I guess the front ones were bald since I never rotated them (in the 2 years Ive had the car lol). It was very sweet of him. When I got up I went out and got a gift for the wedding we were going to that night. I also got some new flats to shove my little sausage feet into. Then I came home and wrapped the gift and showered and got ready for the wedding. We went to Davids parents house first because it was on the way to the wedding and we still needed to give Kay her Easter basket and stuff. We ended up visiting for a while with his mother and father and one of his brothers (Chris). Just talking about the recient happenings in the family and stuff. Then it was time for us to go to the wedding.
The wedding was for my very best mate in highschool, Denny. He and I were very close and he was my best "guy" friend. The girl he married actually went to highschool with us and they were friends but I would NEVER have imagined that one day that was the girl he would marry. I wasnt very close to her in HS but my bestfriend Jamie was so by association I developed a friendship with her. We actually are better friends now out of high school then we were in high school. The end of a friendship with Stephanie helped that a lot. Allison has a little son named Daniel who Denny adopted prior to them even getting engaged. He was with her throughout her pregnancy, labor, delivery, and the first year of Daniels life. He was in all aspects the father of Daniel except biologically. So he adopted him, then later he proposed to Allison and on Saturday they sealed the deal. It was a very beautiful wedding and I was so happy for them. She was a gorgeous bride and Den looked pretty dapper as well. Its so weird looking back on the days of Denny and I... the memories, the dances, the road trips to San Fran... we shared so much. Now we are both grown up, married, and have kids (well, I will soon lol). We arent as close as we were back in the day but we still maintain a friendship and a deep rooted love for one another. He and I went through a lot together and its awesome to see him so happy in his life. Jamie couldnt come to the wedding so I snapped two "secret" shots from my cell to send to her so she could see haha. Im glad I did because I forgot my camera all together lol! The first picture is Allison being walked down the isle by her dad, and the second picture is after they are married Denny and Allison (Alli is holding their son Daniel). Denny was "Mr Thing" in high school and all the girls where smitten with him... even though him and I never had that "issue" I will say he looked very nice in his suit and stuff. Very grown up. (Ps- Gillette is Dennys real name... thats why it says that on the picture. He is actuall Gillette Dennis Warden the 4th... Denny is from Dennis because his dad is Gill.)
After the wedding we went home and the Matsons came over for a slumber party (jk). They showed up with Settlers and dessert... AND NO BABIES! lol. Its weird seeing them without their two little attachments. Im so used to Makalah and Brookie now. But it was nice to hang out and not have to worry about them, to know they were being watched and safe somewhere else lol. We played a new "rendition" of settlers (teams) and baked brownies and cookies. MMM! Then we went to bed around 1am after Megan and I were CLEARLY over the game but David & Kalen had to keep the competition alive lol. Finally the Matsons won and I couldnt have been more happy for them and then rushed to my bed lol.
HOWEVER... all night David kept flipping on his stomach and his mask would pull slightly off his face causing this "trumpette" sound. Sorta like an elephant. AHHH! Id start to fall asleep and then bam, the noise would wake me up. It was driving me nuts. Normally Id send him upstairs to sleep so that I could sleep but the Matsons were in that bed haha. If I had him turn the mask off he would snore and I would be kept up by that... and if he wasnt snoring I would be awake freaking out if he was breathing or not. So by the time everything was situated right and quiet it was like 5am and I finally fell asleep. But then Megan had to get ready for work at 6:30am so I got woken up by her little footsteps lol. Its not her fault... the wood floors are NOT forgiving on noise lol. Then I fell back asleep around 7:30 and woke up at 8:30 and jumped out of bed and got David up and in a panic we got ready for church (starts at 9am lol). We made it and then came home and I made grilled paninis on the foreman and we watched Sherlock holmes. Then i took a nap. Afterwards Kalen and Megan came back over and we played a quick game of settlers before the Matsons had to hit the road to get back to their little children. Then David and I relaxed together and had dinner and watched Amazing Race and Undercover boss. Then it was bedtime and now its Monday FUNDAY! lol. (or not...)
We got our carseat in a while back and are going to be installing it in the car tonight. I was going to wait until my car had been detailed but with all these contractions and everything I figured I would go ahead and put it in to be on the safe side lol! Here is the actual seat. I looooooove it!
I also wanted to post a picture of my little furbabies. They have been abnormally obnoxious lately with barking and stuff and I think a lot of it has to do with the changes in the household and just not getting the attention they are used to. Sunday afternoon while David studied and I watched old 90's love flicks they cuddled up on me and went to sleep and they just looked so calm and peaceful. I couldnt help but snap a quick picture. They may drive me crazy... but I love them. They were my therapy for infertility and Im excited for them to be part of my daughters life.
I had the most bizzare dream last night about Kisha lol. I dreamt she had the baby and it was a natural delivery and the baby came out and it ended up being a boy. For some reason I was at the hospital and Troy was just saying over and over "no, thats the wrong baby. I have a daughter. Im goign to sue you for switching the babies" and I was like "Troy I saw the baby come out" (even though he was there and saw it too lol) and then at the end he was like crying and happy he had a son and they named him Asher. What a weird dream lol. Kisha MUST be having this baby soon because I keep dreaming about HER babies birth lol. She is like 4 days over due now?? GEEZ! COME OUT LITTLE ONE!
Man... do your eyes hurt yet from all the reading or WHAT lol!! Until next time...
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Take this survey if you are pregnant
Basic Information
Your name? CassandraFathers name? David
Are you still with him? Yes, we are happily (and eternally) married.
Were you trying to get pregnant? Yes, we were trying but had given up hope that it was going to happen naturally and had begun pursing adoption. But we never "stopped trying".
When you found out
When did you find out? I was only 3wks and 3 days pregnant. It was August 22nd 2009!
Were did you find out? In my bathroom. Took a test on a whim because a girlfriend was pregnant lol. SUPRISE SUPRISE!How far along were you? Barely pregnant at all. Only 3wks 3 days (10 days past ov).What was your reaction? Shocked. We had not been able to "try" that month due to a bunch of different circumstances so it threw me off that the one month it SHOULDNT have happened, it did.
Who was the first person you told? My OB haha.
How did you tell the father? Once the doctor confirmed everything I just told him by showing him a test (which was still very faint) and he didnt believe me so I got a digital that said "pregnant" and then he believed me lol.
What was his reaction? He was excited, but cautious. He didnt want to get his own hopes up or me to excited because of our past history with miscarriage and stuff.
All about your pregnancy
When is your due date? First U/S said 5/8/10 and then second U/S said 5/2/10 so you take your pick. We mostly go off 5/2 but the doctor seems to go back and forth between both.
Did you have any morning sickness? Yes, I had morning, noon, and night sickness. It was horrible and didnt let up until about 18 weeks. Then I got incredible hip pain to replace it. Now in my third trimester I have the barfs again AND the hip pain. Double the trouble.
What are your fears? Just getting this baby here alive and safe and healthy. We have had many miscarriages and failed infertility treatment so each day that we make it through is a triumph.
What are you most happy about? That it is finally our turn to bring a beautiful little soul into this world to raise and love and be parents to.
Did you want a boy or girl? Truth be told I think we had our hearts set on a little boy... but I always knew in the back of my head it was a girl. Then when we officially found out it was a girl, we wouldnt have it any other way. She is our little angel :)
What did the father want boy or girl? He definately wanted a little boy. I think every man wants a son ya know? But he is already in love with his baby girl. He tells her every night how much he loves her haha.
Do you know what your haveing? A girl. No denying her girly parts in all the ultrasounds haha.
Do you have a name picked out? Her name will be Adella Juliet after our mothers (Adele & Julie).
How much weight have you gained? Technically none haha. I lost 21 pounds the first trimester, gained 7 back by 33 weeks, lost 2 while I was sick and am at a total of -16lbs since I got pregnant and I am gonna be 37 weeks on Saturday.
Have you felt the baby move? Oh do I ever feel her move haha. She moves like CRAZY all the time. She is an active little one with mighty strength haha.
When you have the baby
Are you keeping the baby? Yes, she is very much wanted and will be joining our family with open arms to embrace her.
Do you plan on a natural or medicated birth? I dont plan on anything. If I can go unmedicated, cool... if I need meds, thats fine, if I need an epidurla, well shoot me up. haha.
Are you scared about labor? I dont know. My mind hasnt fully grasped the concept of labor I dont think haha. I might be a little scared of the unknown.
What do you think will be the worst part of labor? The pain I am assuming haha. Or if it takes a long time then the anxiety of waiting to meet my daughter.
Have you taken any classes? Yes a few.
Who will be in the delivery room? Myself and my husband for DELIVERY. During labor my mom and sister in law will be there. Im sure a few others will pop in lol.
Are you having the birth videotaped? No thanks. Take some over the shoulder pictures for memories but the rest of it I will keep in my brain... no hard evidence needed lol.
Do you think you will cry when you see the baby for the first time? Uh ya! I cry just thinking about seeing her for the first time haha.
What do you think the fathers reaction to the baby will be? I think he will cry as hard if not harder them me haha. He is a bit emotional at times. He is super attached to Adella as well so Im sure he will be just overflowing with emotion.
How do you think family and friends will feel? Im sure they will be overflowing with joy and pride. Excited for their turn to see/hold her and everything.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
consider yourself served Adella lol
FOR ADELLA:
I am issuing a 25 day notice for EVICTION. Tenant will have 25 days in which she can either gather her belongings and promptly vacate the premises, or wait until the final day. After which, she will be physically removed from the property.
She's being evicted due to breech of contract and destruction of property. Expansions only to the FRONT of the house, within reasonable limits, were discussed. Not only have these limits been exceeded, but additions to the back of the house were also made!
Remodeling and gutting of the home was never approved, nor was changing the initial layout and base structure. And due to property damage, there are now leaks in both the upper AND lower levels of the home. On top of which, the landlord has received numerous complaints about nightly disturbances.
After 25 days from this day that she doesn’t comply with the notice will result in immediate and forceful removal at my discretion.
-Mommy.
(hahahahhaa I laughed so hard when I read this.)
I am issuing a 25 day notice for EVICTION. Tenant will have 25 days in which she can either gather her belongings and promptly vacate the premises, or wait until the final day. After which, she will be physically removed from the property.
She's being evicted due to breech of contract and destruction of property. Expansions only to the FRONT of the house, within reasonable limits, were discussed. Not only have these limits been exceeded, but additions to the back of the house were also made!
Remodeling and gutting of the home was never approved, nor was changing the initial layout and base structure. And due to property damage, there are now leaks in both the upper AND lower levels of the home. On top of which, the landlord has received numerous complaints about nightly disturbances.
After 25 days from this day that she doesn’t comply with the notice will result in immediate and forceful removal at my discretion.
-Mommy.
(hahahahhaa I laughed so hard when I read this.)
Im getting it all off my chest.
*Pre-warning: I am 9 months pregnant. I am overly emotional and extremely exhausted. I am full of hormones that rage and even though I see the outbursts coming... I cant always stop them. This post is meant to help me filter those issues out here in a private space that I can feel protected in rather then bottling them up and errupting on the next person who crosses whatever line my pregnant hormones have drawn that day. haha. So please, take it all with a grain of salt.*
Since lately there has been some "hidden" tension (and sometimes not so hidden tension) amoungst different freinds/family/etc... some of the times between me and them, and other times I just witness the tension as a third party I thought it would be good to post a blog and get this off my chest. These are my feelings on the subject at hand and if you feel like Im talking about you... then ask me. If you feel like you need to talk to me about something I say, please do. Please call me, text me, email me... whatever. I hate when things get left unresolved and I hate when everyone suffers in a "group" because of the big fat elephants that are crowding the space up. I have tried to be a good friend, family member, sister in Christ... I have tried to be a good example and someone who is worth keeping as company. I have exhausted my options and now its time to "vent blog" haha.
First of all, stop judging us. Stop judging David and I because we live our life differently then you. If it bothers you that we got married young, or that we work full time, or that we are Mormon... then you have every right to cut us out of your life. If we are not the type of people you want to keep then please, dont keep us. I would hate to know that the way we live our life is bringing you down. Its our life to live and we dont always make the right choices... but we make them together and we suffer through the consequences together. If we are affecting you in any way shape or form... please let us know and we will adress it together. It drives me nuts that people think its okay to look at us and critisize constantly our decisions. I didnt realize that we were in contact with so many perfect people. Everyone makes the occational judgement, even when they dont mean to and I understand that. Infact I am even guilty of it... but stop fixating on us and worry about your own lives. If you are really that worried, how about talking to us about it instead of gossiping about us to everyone else. You do realize they tell us everytime you open your mouth about us haha. What the verse? "Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother's eye." (Matthew 7:5)
As for the people that are using the "lifestyle choices" as the base for arguing... those lifestyle choices are yours to make. We will never tell you who to love or how to love who what choices to make in your life. I will never tell you your life is wrong and I will never try and hurt you for it. We are however entitled to our own opinions and sometimes that WILL clash with other peoples choices. Does that mean we hate them or think less of them? Absolutely not. I love the people in my life very much and that is why I choose to have them in my life. Not everyone has to view the world the way I do and not everyone needs to live their life the way I do. David and I will live our life according to the gospel standards that we believe in. We will raise our children this way and we will strive to be examples of this standard of life. However, like I said, its OUR life. Not yours. I cant make you live your life the way we live ours. So if I live my life different then yours and choose not to partake in events/standards/lifestyle choices that you do... it just means I dont believe in those things for MY life. Stop trying to make me accept your way of life as RIGHT and let me just accept you as my friend/family because I feel like you bring something important to my life regardless of our difference of opinions.
There are a few of you who are great friends, and I am so glad we came across each other and are able to share the unique bonds that we have formed. However friendships are an every growing and evolving process. Just because I cant be at your doorstep every free moment I have or because I choose to spend my time with various people then with you all the time does not mean I value you any less or dont want to be your friend. I also hate that because I dont have kids (well, not officially any outside the womb lol) that I am expected to do all the commuting and schedule adjusting. I love you, and visiting you... but I would love a "meet me half way" mentality. It is exhausting feeling like the only person keeping these relationships alive. When I tried the "Ill contact you as much as you contact me" approach almost every single one of you fell off the face of the earth, and then blamed me for it when I caved and contacted you. I love you enough to put forth the effort, but really, it would be nice to have that same effort put back towards me.
Lying is not acceptable. "You" in particular are driving me nuts with your ever changing stories, your blatant lies and the worst part is that you cant even keep up with all the crud your mouth spills out that nothing EVER adds up. Your lying now to cover your lies. Doesnt that make you exhausted? Dont you wish you were confident enough in yourself to be who you actually are? I bet myself, as well as everyone else around you would like you so much more if you would stop trying to be something your not. Im not sure you even know you do it, and that makes me sad that you have that little of a sense of identity. You are a smart person and have the ability to grow up and be an awesome person if you would just get it together. Stop focusing on what everyone has that you dont have and instead focus on what you have and how to make it better. Its getting annoying to be around you because we have to be on eggshells not knowing whats going to set you off or whatever. If you need someone to talk to about whatever your going through, Im here. I will listen and I will try my best to give any advice the spirit prompts me to give... but something in the mean time has to give. I dont want to be frustrated everytime I leave you or read things you write or hear what you say... I want to enjoy your company and want to spend time around you. At this point your immaturity and laziness and inability to tell the truth sends me running the other direction with my fingers in my ears screaming "lalalala" to try and save myself from spewing out the gossip/judgement that I find come so easily after being around you. That doesnt lift me up, it brings me down. I want to walk away with nice things to say and I want to help you grow as a person as you help me grow. So please... grow up and be the awesome person I know you are inside before I re-evaluate why I want you in my life and realize that right now, I dont.
Its okay to ask for help. I know you are proud that you can do it on your own and it makes us really proud of you too. However, its okay to talk about things. Its okay to cry and its okay to reach out to those that love you and want to be there for you. You cant be super woman and he cant just turn the light off on issues he doesnt want to address. We are here for you and admire you so much, so please dont ever feel like you cant come to us for help or just a place to get away for a while or whatever. I just have a gut feeling that there is more going on then you want to let on because you are scared of being seen as weak or something. Talk to me :) Im your friend and want to help you.
Thats probably the biggest clump of internalized feelings I have for now. haha. I feel better getting it off my chest and I will work on expressing myself better when faced with these situations/people instead of internalizing it. Just gotta work on opening my mouth instead of looking away and hoping it gets better on its own. The Lord puts people in our lives for a reason, and I am in peoples lives for a reason. If I am there then I might as well go the whole 10 yards right? haha.
I just want to say I love my family and friends a lot and dont know where I would be without them. I dont want to give up on them and even though I get frustrated (as shown above lol) I still stand by them. :)
Since lately there has been some "hidden" tension (and sometimes not so hidden tension) amoungst different freinds/family/etc... some of the times between me and them, and other times I just witness the tension as a third party I thought it would be good to post a blog and get this off my chest. These are my feelings on the subject at hand and if you feel like Im talking about you... then ask me. If you feel like you need to talk to me about something I say, please do. Please call me, text me, email me... whatever. I hate when things get left unresolved and I hate when everyone suffers in a "group" because of the big fat elephants that are crowding the space up. I have tried to be a good friend, family member, sister in Christ... I have tried to be a good example and someone who is worth keeping as company. I have exhausted my options and now its time to "vent blog" haha.
First of all, stop judging us. Stop judging David and I because we live our life differently then you. If it bothers you that we got married young, or that we work full time, or that we are Mormon... then you have every right to cut us out of your life. If we are not the type of people you want to keep then please, dont keep us. I would hate to know that the way we live our life is bringing you down. Its our life to live and we dont always make the right choices... but we make them together and we suffer through the consequences together. If we are affecting you in any way shape or form... please let us know and we will adress it together. It drives me nuts that people think its okay to look at us and critisize constantly our decisions. I didnt realize that we were in contact with so many perfect people. Everyone makes the occational judgement, even when they dont mean to and I understand that. Infact I am even guilty of it... but stop fixating on us and worry about your own lives. If you are really that worried, how about talking to us about it instead of gossiping about us to everyone else. You do realize they tell us everytime you open your mouth about us haha. What the verse? "Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother's eye." (Matthew 7:5)
As for the people that are using the "lifestyle choices" as the base for arguing... those lifestyle choices are yours to make. We will never tell you who to love or how to love who what choices to make in your life. I will never tell you your life is wrong and I will never try and hurt you for it. We are however entitled to our own opinions and sometimes that WILL clash with other peoples choices. Does that mean we hate them or think less of them? Absolutely not. I love the people in my life very much and that is why I choose to have them in my life. Not everyone has to view the world the way I do and not everyone needs to live their life the way I do. David and I will live our life according to the gospel standards that we believe in. We will raise our children this way and we will strive to be examples of this standard of life. However, like I said, its OUR life. Not yours. I cant make you live your life the way we live ours. So if I live my life different then yours and choose not to partake in events/standards/lifestyle choices that you do... it just means I dont believe in those things for MY life. Stop trying to make me accept your way of life as RIGHT and let me just accept you as my friend/family because I feel like you bring something important to my life regardless of our difference of opinions.
There are a few of you who are great friends, and I am so glad we came across each other and are able to share the unique bonds that we have formed. However friendships are an every growing and evolving process. Just because I cant be at your doorstep every free moment I have or because I choose to spend my time with various people then with you all the time does not mean I value you any less or dont want to be your friend. I also hate that because I dont have kids (well, not officially any outside the womb lol) that I am expected to do all the commuting and schedule adjusting. I love you, and visiting you... but I would love a "meet me half way" mentality. It is exhausting feeling like the only person keeping these relationships alive. When I tried the "Ill contact you as much as you contact me" approach almost every single one of you fell off the face of the earth, and then blamed me for it when I caved and contacted you. I love you enough to put forth the effort, but really, it would be nice to have that same effort put back towards me.
Lying is not acceptable. "You" in particular are driving me nuts with your ever changing stories, your blatant lies and the worst part is that you cant even keep up with all the crud your mouth spills out that nothing EVER adds up. Your lying now to cover your lies. Doesnt that make you exhausted? Dont you wish you were confident enough in yourself to be who you actually are? I bet myself, as well as everyone else around you would like you so much more if you would stop trying to be something your not. Im not sure you even know you do it, and that makes me sad that you have that little of a sense of identity. You are a smart person and have the ability to grow up and be an awesome person if you would just get it together. Stop focusing on what everyone has that you dont have and instead focus on what you have and how to make it better. Its getting annoying to be around you because we have to be on eggshells not knowing whats going to set you off or whatever. If you need someone to talk to about whatever your going through, Im here. I will listen and I will try my best to give any advice the spirit prompts me to give... but something in the mean time has to give. I dont want to be frustrated everytime I leave you or read things you write or hear what you say... I want to enjoy your company and want to spend time around you. At this point your immaturity and laziness and inability to tell the truth sends me running the other direction with my fingers in my ears screaming "lalalala" to try and save myself from spewing out the gossip/judgement that I find come so easily after being around you. That doesnt lift me up, it brings me down. I want to walk away with nice things to say and I want to help you grow as a person as you help me grow. So please... grow up and be the awesome person I know you are inside before I re-evaluate why I want you in my life and realize that right now, I dont.
Its okay to ask for help. I know you are proud that you can do it on your own and it makes us really proud of you too. However, its okay to talk about things. Its okay to cry and its okay to reach out to those that love you and want to be there for you. You cant be super woman and he cant just turn the light off on issues he doesnt want to address. We are here for you and admire you so much, so please dont ever feel like you cant come to us for help or just a place to get away for a while or whatever. I just have a gut feeling that there is more going on then you want to let on because you are scared of being seen as weak or something. Talk to me :) Im your friend and want to help you.
Thats probably the biggest clump of internalized feelings I have for now. haha. I feel better getting it off my chest and I will work on expressing myself better when faced with these situations/people instead of internalizing it. Just gotta work on opening my mouth instead of looking away and hoping it gets better on its own. The Lord puts people in our lives for a reason, and I am in peoples lives for a reason. If I am there then I might as well go the whole 10 yards right? haha.
I just want to say I love my family and friends a lot and dont know where I would be without them. I dont want to give up on them and even though I get frustrated (as shown above lol) I still stand by them. :)
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