bikinis on the brain?

Megan and Kisha have been talking about their future swimwear on their blogs. Megan posted a cute tankini with a unique halter neckline from one site, and Kisha posted almost the exact same bathing suit just slightly thinner straps and different colors from a different site. Funny how that happened haha. Its a really cute design so I understand why lol. I would never look good in a halter top because my "ladies" are far to large and need a little more "control. I also wont be walking around in any booty short bottoms or bikini cut briefs... the thunder thighs need a little more coverage. haha. I definately want something "slimming" in the midline as well, cause I had a gut prior to baby and I doubt it will just vanish after having a kid lol.


Maybe I should sport something like this and give a big "up yours!" to the world lol. fortunately for the world... I am far to modest for that lol. No one wants to see *ALL OF DIS* in so little of that lol.

So with all this talk of bathing suits it got me interested in seeing what was out there in the "modest" realm of bathing suits. I need something sturdy up top, controlling through the middle, covering on the bottom and over all just forgiving of my "flaws" lol. Its actually interesting how many options are out there. I guess I dont need to wear the giant floral grandma dress bathing suit after all right? lol. I am a fan of the more vintage cut types of suits, with darker colors because in my head black=slimming haha. I guess I am not really comfortable or ready to embark on a bathing suit journey. I want to see how my body responds to having the baby and then go from there.


Lets face it... I am never going to be a size 2. Infact I dont think I want to be, I doubt I would look healthy and I would have to spend all my time obsessing over my calories and crap to maintain that size and I wouldnt enjoy it. I am of athletic build... right now I am off "couch potato and pregnant" build... but when I am fit? Im athleticly stalky. I look trim and fit in a size 7 and I ideally should weigh around 145-155pds. Im also very dense. I dont have perfectly smooth skin, I got the cottage cheese thighs and butt dimples lol. My under arms are flabby and I got a double chin. I blamed my leg/knee injuries for a long time for my loss of a healthy body.

Well, not anymore. I will get healthy and in shape. I dont expect to pop Adella out and walk out of the hospital 50lbs lighter lol. But I do expect to walk out with a little girl who will be counting on me to show her how to grow up healthy and strong and the best way to lead is by example. I dont want her to have a fat unhealthy mother who eats nasty food all the time and its fine with settling on mediocre for her life. I want to be the best I can be so that she grows up striving to be the best she can be. So yes, its a long road ahead of me but I have a lot of people who support me and I also have a lot of people to keep me company on that road. We are in it together, sisters & brothers in Christ trying our hardest to make our bodies temples of the Lord and glorify him by treating what he gave us with respect and honor.

David and I have talked about this a lot before, and we are both very "mater of fact" dont sugar coat it... we both have verbally said "We dont want Adella to have fat parents". David is starting the WLC (weight loss challenge) on Tuesday April 6th. It costs $35 for 10 weeks and the top 3 "losers" win cash prizes. I lost like 45lbs with the WLC prior to getting pregnant and will begin doing them again after Adella is born. Im proud of David for starting now rather then later with me. He is doing his part to do better and be better for his daughter, and for me. I also want to be better for my daughter and for him. Health is really important and its kind of disgusting how society makes it so easy to be so unhealthy. Makes you really realize how important the word of wisdom actually is haha.

So for now, I am excited for the future and the work that is going to take place (along with the results) but I am enjoying the now with baby girl still inside of me and feeling her move and grow. I have my goals set, but not so high that my expectations will sabatoge me, and Im just ready to be all I can be (in the army...jk).